Dear Diary: The Broken Branch

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     Dear Diary,

Today I’m loitering about, preparing for a large journey elsewhere. I’ve returned to a hometown of mine recently after 40-or-so-years and in doing so I’ve come to be aware that there were looming elements of my past deeply still in existence wrapped up and rooted here. It wasn’t until today, finally, that I began to understood why I still have any connection to this town, and why all of my flights (3 separate flights to 3 separate time zones mind you) to depart have somehow managed to synchronistically fall through in the last 3 days.

As the day had gone on, I found myself sitting on a porch wistfully contemplating into
a private and whispy park-side. Despite the sense that I’d been engulfed a wandering Berumuda Triangle, my heart had been telling me something I just barely managed to notice as the sound of the leaves rustling in the mid-day breeze were so cathartic… A very old Proverb, in the 13th chapter to be exact, that I hadn’t heard since my youth, and since the beginning of the Path I now walk… Well, this proverb continued to replay in my Within, “Hope deferred maketh the heart sick”. Over and over again it played… It was almost as though someone was gently whispering into my ears. The ears of my soul more accurately. After each recitation, this mantra would continue echoing…

Earlier this day:

        Sometime around the afternoon, I received a call from my childhood sweetheart for the first time in a long time. Since I’d been back, we had met to catch up, but it wasn’t particularly… transparent by nature. Well, she heard that I would be leaving very soon and asked to speak to me once more over the phone. This woman explained to me that she had been in love with me still (and still un-married but often very close to being so), since she 11 and I 16.

       It was the most amazing and peaceful death of an extremely long and overdue life… the life of an imaginary possibility: “The One”. The fact that her and I were not “The One’s” for each-other is not the source of imagination, quite the opposite actually. The source of imagination and over-due death was her own clung, emotional fantasy. It was something that survived only off of illusion, because the one she was still in love with was the one she thought I was before I left life as I once knew it and followed the path. The Tao. 

   Despite this woman’s charming and timeless allure, it was an immense relief. It was to fulfill a conversation I had never realized I had always needed and that we had never had. In some way I felt a huge freedom from a trap that was not my own, and for my friend I think she found the same, and in doing so released us both…

 

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Look closely and you can spot a mid-day rainbow across the sky.

 

As I pondered this day these experiences my lady-friend had embodied early in the day echoed throughout my thoughts again, along with this proverbial saying I once knew and learned in this very town probably around the time I was once with her. Well, I meditated on these things and their relevance and as fortune would have it, out of nowhere I heard a loud “Crack! SNAP!!!”. One of the main trees at this park just let go of a very large and seemingly alive branch. At this point the implications were clear.

 

Symbolism of Cracked Tree Branches:

“The only time a branch falls off a tree on its own is when it is dead. No more life to keep it attached to the tree. No sap. No nothing. The tree feels no pain when the dead branch falls away. It might even feel relieved that the dead weight is finally gone. That the dead branch has finally fallen off.”

To see a tree branch signifies good luck, growth and new life. Because trees represent life and branches represent relationships, a branch breaking often means the death of a relationship connected to either family.

 

Additionally, My Master once said:

“He [the divine father] cuts off every branch in Me [the christic son] that bears no fruit, and every branch that does bear fruit, He prunes to make it even more fruitful.”

See below for the connections…

Since I’ve been back, I’ve felt like many deaths, divorces and broken branches have evidently made themselves apparent. It’s strange though, because all along, I couldn’t help but shake this feeling as though I was being reborn again in some way. This town and the last months of my life have brought about closure for me in a very old, and ancient chapter of my Genesis; and it’s now as I think about it that I remember: “for any new life to be made manifest new death must occur just as well.” This truth is a universal one which can be seen so poignantly seen throughout all life, including the glorious sign of a broken and fallen branch.

I can safely say that if this form of closure has been a “chapter”, than I am certainly nearing the final pages.

It’s through this process of revisiting others that I’ve remembered more and more that when we ourselves move on in life, somehow the perceptions loved ones have on us can withhold our own development and process if they’re not actually ready for us to move on. I love that this is the case, I love that I can trust my guides, and I love that the universe cares for me and my friends just as I would. Tenderly and in due-time. Such as this is the Creator whom I ineffably love. Oh, yeah, and I love his little whispers… My Master’s wondrous whispers… ❤

 

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I’m not sure what it is, but something up ahead looks awfully bright…

 

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“Hope deferred maketh the heart sick: but,
when that desire cometh, it 𝑖𝑠 that tree of life.”

-The book of Proverbs; Chapter 13, verse 12.

 

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Journal: A Bird’s-Eye Overview of June

 

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This month, June, I’ve encountered a series of extremely conspicuous
synchronicites found in what you could call symbols or omens. Before listing them
and learning what they represent, let me share a brief and un-biased point of view of what my month has consisted of in terms of themes and focus, and then I will share the symbols that have shown up and what their interpreted meanings are after the month is over. I’d like to
hear if these are things others may be relating to as well, and
that perhaps I’m noticing a global set of themes and
archetypal symbology for us all.
So…! June:


June for me has primarily been an epic season of change
. For the last 3 months I have been residing in Southern California to assist a group of people with some help on various things I’ve acquired lots of knowledge and experience in throughout the years. This had been the case the whole time I had been here until the month of June came. Days before it did so, I notified the leaders of this organization which I had been volunteering my time and expertise towards, and informed them that I would be taking a time off. I wasn’t certain why, but I had an extremely strong and assured suspicion that I would be resting for a time, roughly a month’s worth, and then starting my “work” back up again.

Well, as the month went on and into what evolved to be what one could call an “Extended Sabbath”, I began to get divine/intuitive feelings and unctions that my time in this place would be changing quite soon, along with the labor I’ve been offering, and doing so quite drastically. My studies have deepened well beyond my wildest dreams into the themes of Divine Union & Integration with the Divine Feminine (AKA the Holy Spirit, Divine Mother, Jehovah Shammah or Asherah) as well as all the few remaining aspects of the unintegrated self. It was in the midst of these new depths that I began sensing a relocation of my physical self, and possibly a new season for deeper study… Maybe even an awakening of sorts.

Is it my stars aligning, or simply this gorgeous night-sky of 2016’s? Who knows… Stay tuned for my first entry of this passing month’s “Signs, Symbols & Synchronicity” and maybe we’ll find out it’s for all of us! IDK, you can be the judge. 🙂

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(6/22/16)